Ambien trial..

So I never really sleep through the night. I spend 2-5 hours falling asleep and then I never stay asleep. I wake up and it takes another hour to sleep, many times a night.. It’s been like that all of my life. Idk why.. I mean when I go to sleep I think about how my life would be, how’d I’d like it to be, how I failed, how bad I hurt my loved ones, every bad thing I’ve done till I’m covered in sweat.. No one can sleep with that. I do deserve it, I’m & was a horrible person. Idk why I’m such a fuck up.. I never mean these things, I always feel horrific after. I haven’t done bad in awhile. I was on trazadone 100mgs to sleep and I took melatonin. I’m supposed to stop all that now. I have a new script for Ambien. When I told everyone I was now to take Ambien, everyone was like oh no. My mother took it and sleep walked. Talked to people ect.. I read even people drive asleep. Scary shit. I’m afraid to take it. If my mother had problems, highly likely I will, right? Should I try?